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I need you to come over.
Right now.
Please.
Right now.
Please.
[ this is karma for the last time, isn't it? Jen doesn't think so for very long, because it would be unfair to be that selfish, but as she rolls out of bed and re-reads the message it occurs to her how the situation was essentially reversed. ]
Give me 15.
What happened?
[ might as well get some context while she gets herself armed and ready. ]
Give me 15.
What happened?
[ might as well get some context while she gets herself armed and ready. ]
Dante left. He doesn't remember Retrospec anymore.
[ ...okay, now she's rushing. ]
Damn
I'm so sorry, Vera
I'll be there quick as I can
[ well, as fast as traffic laws will allow. Jen's feeling urgent but she's not that reckless. ]
Damn
I'm so sorry, Vera
I'll be there quick as I can
[ well, as fast as traffic laws will allow. Jen's feeling urgent but she's not that reckless. ]
Please just hurry.
Be safe. The doors are unlocked.
[And Jen will find the stairwell clear and the front door unlocked, with a nightie-clad Vera pacing madly in the living room.]
Be safe. The doors are unlocked.
[And Jen will find the stairwell clear and the front door unlocked, with a nightie-clad Vera pacing madly in the living room.]
[ she was a little out of breath once she got inside, all from finding a space to park some distance away and also practically taking the steps two at a time. of course, once she got sight of Vera, it would take her a moment to calm down anyway, so at least it was a good way to play off the effect of the sight of her. ]
Whew, uh. I'm - I've got to get a parking pass from you or something, if this keeps up.
[ okay, wow. Jen shuts her mouth tight and straightens up, the leather of her jacket creaking. ] Uh. Sorry. I didn't mean...
Whew, uh. I'm - I've got to get a parking pass from you or something, if this keeps up.
[ okay, wow. Jen shuts her mouth tight and straightens up, the leather of her jacket creaking. ] Uh. Sorry. I didn't mean...
["If this keeps up." Jen, you really have a way with words, don't you? This "keeping up" is exactly the problem. Those words should make her blood boil, that she could say something so flippant about what she's experiencing, but she can't. There's no fight left in her. She's already screamed, and swore, and cried, and all that's left is this broken husk of a girl who continues to lose everyone she's ever cared for.
So she just... stands there, eyes at Jen's feet, hands balled into fists.]
Es... passiert schon wieder. Everyone I get closed to... will leave me.
So she just... stands there, eyes at Jen's feet, hands balled into fists.]
Es... passiert schon wieder. Everyone I get closed to... will leave me.
[ one of these days she's going to have to install some app to help her learn German or something. that's not even a secondary thought to what's going on right now; she can guess context well enough. Jen sets her helmet down on whatever surface is handy and then steps in closer to Vera. she's not sure if a hug is wanted but she leaves her arms open for one all the same. ]
Hey. Hey, listen, that's not always going to be true. Look at me. I've been a Sleeper and back again, good as new.
[ the latter part of that statement is open for debate but it won't undermine her point. ]
Hey. Hey, listen, that's not always going to be true. Look at me. I've been a Sleeper and back again, good as new.
[ the latter part of that statement is open for debate but it won't undermine her point. ]
[She's not going to hug her, but she will sort of lean into her. It's too hard for her to lift her arms right now.]
For all I know you're going to leave me behind too.
For all I know you're going to leave me behind too.
You don't know that. I don't know that. [ she brings her hands up to rest on Vera's upper arms, rubbing them up and down gently. hopefully she can soothe some of these aches, somehow. ]
But if you let that be all you think about, you'll just make yourself miserable.
But if you let that be all you think about, you'll just make yourself miserable.
I'm already miserable. I don't know why I bother making friends when all they do is hurt me and abandon me. There's no point in it anymore...
That's not really fair, is it? It's ... It's a little like saying "I don't know why I make the bed, I'll just sleep in it later", or "why shower? I'll just sweat again" or... or... [ oh damn it, those were pretty weak.
ah! ] "Why eat? I'll just get hungry again."
[ yes, that's better. ] It's because you need it. You need people in your life.
ah! ] "Why eat? I'll just get hungry again."
[ yes, that's better. ] It's because you need it. You need people in your life.
[Eat? What's that? Vera hasn't eaten all day, she can't bring herself to.]
I've gotten this far in life by myself.
I've gotten this far in life by myself.
You know that's not true. [ she's trying not to sound firm, but Vera's negativity is just the sort of thing that really causes Jen to bristle. it's the sort of thing like how Lina blew her own misery out of proportion until Jen was able to coax her out of her shell of self-deprecation. ]
I may not know your life up until this point so well, but I just... can't see you growing up entirely shaped by spite and isolation. I can't imagine it.
I may not know your life up until this point so well, but I just... can't see you growing up entirely shaped by spite and isolation. I can't imagine it.
hi, um, Jen? Jen Bowen? this is Lina Geteilt but probably not the Lina Geteilt you remember me being from the past couple of months.
we were roommates. are roommates? it's hard to tell because we aren't even in the city right now, or at least i'm not and i have a feeling you aren't either
i just didn't want you to think i left on purpose.
we were roommates. are roommates? it's hard to tell because we aren't even in the city right now, or at least i'm not and i have a feeling you aren't either
i just didn't want you to think i left on purpose.
Then you don't know me very well.
[She reaches up, grasping the taller girl's shoulders to gently push the two apart. Finally, her eyes lift from the floor in order to meet with Jen's.]
Do you know how I became the President of Weisz Manufacturing?
[She reaches up, grasping the taller girl's shoulders to gently push the two apart. Finally, her eyes lift from the floor in order to meet with Jen's.]
Do you know how I became the President of Weisz Manufacturing?
Uh. [ if it's space she wants, Jen will give it to her. she shakes her head. ] No, I don't.
My father. [She pauses, closing her eyes and taking a breath. Does she really want to talk about this right now?]
My father was on a business trip, flying to New York out of Munich when his plane disappeared over the Atlantic Ocean. I was six. I barely understood what an heiress was, and suddenly here I was, the sole owner of one of the largest privately-owned organizations in the world.
And the only thing I cared about was that I was never going to see my father again.
My father was on a business trip, flying to New York out of Munich when his plane disappeared over the Atlantic Ocean. I was six. I barely understood what an heiress was, and suddenly here I was, the sole owner of one of the largest privately-owned organizations in the world.
And the only thing I cared about was that I was never going to see my father again.
[ there's not much Jen can do or say to that. she may have grown up largely without her father in her life, but at least he was alive last she had heard. ]
I'm really sorry. I ... can't even imagine what that must have been like. [ but obviously it pained her to hear it. ]
I'm really sorry. I ... can't even imagine what that must have been like. [ but obviously it pained her to hear it. ]
Hey, Lina!
God, I was worried but with everything going on I didn't think to message you sooner.
I'm really sorry about that.
The entire apartment looks weird but your room being empty was the weirdest part by far. I thought you had glitched out or something. Lost packets. Tech stuff, I don't know.
God, I was worried but with everything going on I didn't think to message you sooner.
I'm really sorry about that.
The entire apartment looks weird but your room being empty was the weirdest part by far. I thought you had glitched out or something. Lost packets. Tech stuff, I don't know.
it's okay, don't worry about it. my room was actually kind of the reason i was texting?
i don't really know what was different about me over the past two months, but i know that if we were roommates, i wasn't living with my parents, when they still had a house and we weren't all inside a computer or something. i'm not sure, it's complicated, but i think you know what i mean
and honestly, i've been wanting to find a place of my own lately
i think if i'm sitting at home all the time with people who aren't on the app, i'm just going to get worried about them more often. you know, when things happen to them and not me or vice versa
it's going to be a big undertaking, but i guess what i'm asking is whether you want to be roommates again?
i don't really know what was different about me over the past two months, but i know that if we were roommates, i wasn't living with my parents, when they still had a house and we weren't all inside a computer or something. i'm not sure, it's complicated, but i think you know what i mean
and honestly, i've been wanting to find a place of my own lately
i think if i'm sitting at home all the time with people who aren't on the app, i'm just going to get worried about them more often. you know, when things happen to them and not me or vice versa
it's going to be a big undertaking, but i guess what i'm asking is whether you want to be roommates again?
Okay, Lina, no offense? But you really need to slow down for me.
First of all: of course it's fine if you want to stay.
Or move back in.
Whatever the best way to phrase that is.
Second of all: I don't understand what you mean by things being different about you, but I think I had an idea. I'm the... opposite, you could say. It's complicated. I'm still wrapping my head around it. But as far as I can tell I haven't changed a second time, if that makes sense?
Third: how do you feel about dogs? Please tell me you're not allergic, because that would be a dealbreaker.
First of all: of course it's fine if you want to stay.
Or move back in.
Whatever the best way to phrase that is.
Second of all: I don't understand what you mean by things being different about you, but I think I had an idea. I'm the... opposite, you could say. It's complicated. I'm still wrapping my head around it. But as far as I can tell I haven't changed a second time, if that makes sense?
Third: how do you feel about dogs? Please tell me you're not allergic, because that would be a dealbreaker.
that makes sense to me, yeah. i'm sorry, sometimes i just get nervous and words start happening. if you want to meet up and talk about things, i can do that, but i know there's a lot to still think about and i want to make sure you have space and time to do it first.
thank you for saying i can, um, keep up this arrangement? i do really, really want to keep being roommates with you
especially if you have a dog now
thank you for saying i can, um, keep up this arrangement? i do really, really want to keep being roommates with you
especially if you have a dog now
It's okay. It's a lot to deal with. On top of ... whatever else is happening right now.
And I don't have my dog back yet, but I will soon as I go turn in this code. Do you want to go with me? You know the place, right?
And I don't have my dog back yet, but I will soon as I go turn in this code. Do you want to go with me? You know the place, right?
thanks for understanding <3
oh! it's by the wiffle waffle, right? i still haven't had a reason to go there myself... maybe this will be the month :( it might be nice to have something good instead of just memories
it does seem a little dangerous to mail a dog, though
oh! it's by the wiffle waffle, right? i still haven't had a reason to go there myself... maybe this will be the month :( it might be nice to have something good instead of just memories
it does seem a little dangerous to mail a dog, though
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